No Small Feat


Yesterday was a big milestone here at, and I’m happy to share it with you, although it probably only concerns me.

Before I get into that, I would like to take a moment to tell you that I have littered the internet with failed blogs. I spent a while today trying to remember them all and I lost count, and that’s the ones I remember – for every one I do remember, there’s likely two or three more that I don’t.

The point is that I’ve been wanting a blog since the early days of LiveJournal, and I’ve never quite gotten in the habit of writing with any of them.

Until this one.

My first blog post here was November 10, 2014. That’s over two and a half years ago. In that time I’ve told my story as honestly as I felt comfortable doing. I’ve been very forthcoming in most situations, but not as much so in others, but each post has been genuine.

I initially envisioned this blog to be a humorous look at my life, and there’s been a bit of levity here and there, but for the most part this has been considerably more serious than I have initially hoped. I wanted to show that dealing with mental illness was sometimes funny. Instead I got more in depth with my audience than I had ever really intended.

The commentary that I’ve gotten from so many of you that read this blog has kept me going, and has also told me that being as transparent as possible at the cost of jocularity was the right decision. I know a few people that have told me that I inspire them with what I write. I wouldn’t go so far as to say that, but I hope that I’ve given you some insight into one man’s journey with mental illness. If I’ve inspired you along the way, I’m very glad that I have, and that means more to me than you can possibly realize. While it’s not my primary goal with this blog to inspire or motivate people, I would be lying if I said that wasn’t a hope of mine.

Yesterday I wrote about life in general, with a generous dash of college tossed in for good measure. I hit publish and within a few seconds I got a notification on my phone from the WordPress app. I’d reached a new milestone.

Yesterday was my 500th blog post.

For those of you that have joined me on this journey, I appreciate your company, and hope that I can continue to add something to your day. For those of you that are relatively new to the blog, welcome, and thank you for checking it out. Some posts have been easier to write about than others, but it’s all been a labor of love.

And with that, the journey continues …


Big Milestone


Regular readers of this blog may remember that I track my food intake through an app called MyFitnessPal. It was referred to me by my therapist and it works very well. The database of foods is expansive, it lets you enter recipes or regular meals as you wish, it gives full nutritional information for everything, and it’s free. It’s been great.

This morning, as I entered my breakfast, I was met with a small notification.

“[I have] logged in for 365 days in a row!”

I’ve been doing this a solid year. My mind boggles at that.

For the past twelve months, I’ve done my best to record every single thing that I’ve consumed, food or drink, and I have a record of it to look back on.

To be fair, there are some things that I don’r record. If a soda has zero calories, I won’t record it, and certain meals – the trip to the churrascaria back in January, for instance – that just couldn’t possibly be recorded. (A churrascaria is a Brazilian steakhouse, where the waitstaff bring unlimited amounts of over a dozen types of meat to your table for you to choose from. There’s beef, there’s pork, there’s chicken, there’s lamb, there’s sausage, plus side dishes, and there’s just no way to accurately estimate how much of what you’re getting. The portions that you receive of most meats is very small, in order to allow you to try more varieties of them, and trying to log it is just too much of a headache to be worth it.) So there are cheat days. Once or twice I didn’t actually log a thing, although I logged into the app. But the vast majority of my foods are recorded and accurately so.

When I started this a year ago I thought it was a great tool to show me how much I was consuming. I didn’t try to adjust my diet any, I just wanted to see how many calories I was eating a day and then after a period of time adjust my diet to compensate, in order to lose weight. I haven’t really adjusted my diet that much – as I write this, I’m eating a bowlful of leftover chicken fried rice – but I’ve still managed to lose 14 pounds since starting this journey. Considering that I haven’t really done anything to try to lose weight, I’m happy with what I’ve accomplished.

So now the focus is going to be on watching how much I eat. I tend to overeat on a lot of occasions and that’s the main reason I go over a day’s allotment of calories. (Once again, see the churrascaria, a place that it is VERY easy to overeat.) Portion control needs to become a thing. Then we’ll worry about pulling my diet away from comfort foods and into something a little more healthy – with the occasional cheat day, of course, still being logged.

I’m really proud of sticking with this for a whole year. I never thought I’d be doing it for that long. I’m looking forward to what the next year will bring.

A Milestone and an Achievement


This one’s going to be short, since I have something of a busy day today, but I wanted to stop in and let you know that I hit a milestone a couple posts back. This is post #202 in this blog, by far the longest I’ve stuck with any blog ever. (I had a bad habit of starting a blog and then abandoning it after only a couple entries. One time I started one that was wine-themed. I don’t drink wine.)

Also, yesterday I hit every item on my checklist, for the first time in almost six months. Progress is slow, but this is the first step.

It’s early, I haven’t been awake long, but so far today that’s all I got. Might be more later. We’ll see.