#595 – Not the Best of Days, Not the Worst of Days


Sometime around 7:45 or so this evening, I noticed that my mood was rapidly tanking, usually a sign that my blood sugar is low. My wife got me to eat a couple yogurts before heading to dinner with friends around 8:15. (More on that in a minute.) My mood stayed down throughout most of the meal, however, and persisted beyond that to an outing to a local game shop afterwards.

I really don’t know what’s triggering this downward swing, but I dislike it intensely. I feel isolated and alone, even with friends around me, and the only thing I can do is grin and bear it.

Having said that, dinner this evening was fantastic. We went with our house guest to meet three more mutual friends of ours for an all-you-can-eat Korean BBQ. The food was very tasty, I tried kimchi for the first time (not bad, but nothing I’ll go out of my way to eat in the future), and I actually had a great time, even though I was fairly anti-social throughout the meal. It was good to get out and see folks that I know and like.

Uncharted Territory


Today’s blog post is going to be quick and dirty, since I’m taking the laptop into the shop to get some work done on it, and I’m trying to minimize how much it heats up before taking it in.

Today is February 11th. If I complete my checklist today, it will be day 26 of full marks, which is an achievement in and of itself. But the date on the calendar is important to me since in 2015 and 2016, I had stopped my checklists altogether by this date. The time of my annual downswing has begun, and I’m still kicking. I’m very proud of that and can’t wait to prove that 2017 is different, that I’m not going to give up and stop doing the things that I know I need to do for myself.

But one day at a time. Right now I’ve got day 26 to worry about.