A Lazy Day, A Simmering Panic


Today has been an exercise in ignoring my checklists, for the most part. I intend to get everything done on them, just … not yet.

Sometimes my brain tells me that it’s a day to just relax about getting things done. I wish I had more days like today, where I didn’t wake up in a dead panic to accomplish everything, nervously checking my little black books to see what I should be doing instead of what I am doing right that moment. I didn’t wake up until around 11:30, and went and took a two hour nap later in the afternoon, cuddling with my wife the whole time. (That made it that much sweeter.)

When I stop to analyze it, my checklist is really not that difficult to get done. I haven’t been exercising lately because I’m not consuming anywhere near the amount of calories I should be and exercising would just reduce my net caloric consumption for the day to an unhealthy level. But even considering a normal day, food-wise, there’s still plenty of time for me to get everything done.

So why do I approach every day like I’m starting off behind and getting more and more so with every passing moment?

Am I becoming one of those people that wants to get the work out of the way before playtime can occur? That would be a switch for me, as I am historically a procrastinator and prone to putting things off until too late to get anything done. My life is a big example of that – I’ve now put off getting a degree to the point that I don’t know if it would be economically worth it to go back to school; could I make enough before my body forces me to retire to pay back what student loans I could potentially be offered?

Fortunately, my brain isn’t letting me focus much on the what-ifs of life today. It’s wanting a day off, and I’m going to let it have it.

Dinner tonight was bratwurst, corn on the cob, an Arnold Palmer (that’s half iced tea and half lemonade, something that I’m sure is at least a misdemeanor crime across the pond in the UK, where I have loyal followers, but I’m from the south, and around this time of year a proper cuppa is just too hot to tolerate), and an Angry Orchard Summer Honey blend hard cider.

And I still have room on the calorie sheet for another bratwurst if I want it.

Go me.


June 5, 2015: Three Good Things


1. After telling my mother about the death of her sister-in-law, she seemed to take it fairly well, only breaking down once for a very short period of time. I did the best I could breaking the news to her gently and it seems to have been sufficient. (I’m not making bets on her having broken down once I got off the phone, though.)

2. LEGO Architecture build #7 is complete – the United Nations headquarters in New York. It joins the Guggenheim Museum, Big Ben, the Trevi Fountain, the Seattle Space Needle, the Empire State Building, and the Lincoln Memorial. I’ve always had an interest in architecture and this is a way I can enjoy architecture and still feel like a kid about it.

3. I had my first steak without salt tonight. Almost as flavorful as it was when I was salting the crap out of my food.

Bonus! I got everything done on the checklist except for exercise and stretching. Considering that I had planned today as a pass due to finding about my aunt’s death, I seem to have kept right on plugging through the day, though I admittedly slept through most of it. I’m over on my caloric intake for the day, so we’ll call that my pass.

May 29, 2015: Three Good Things


1. This one is going to take some explanation. My daily checklists are organized more or less in chronological order, since 80% of the items on it have to be done in a certain order or at a certain time. The 20% of items that aren’t specifically tied to a certain time of day are slotted in what I feel is the best order given how the rest of my day flows. Regardless, there’s nothing saying that I can’t get them all done in the morning or evening or in a different order than I have them listed. Today, I had all of them done by 10:00 am, leaving me the rest of the day that I wasn’t actively eating or checking vitals or taking medications free to do whatever I chose to do. It was a good feeling getting it done and knowing that the rest of the things on my checklist were basically waiting on the clock to happen.

2. One of the items on my to-do list was a project that I’m doing for the internet radio station I DJ for. I got good feedback on my part and that made me feel good about the job that I did.

3. For the second day in a row, I was under my daily caloric allotment – this time by 157. I’m not hungry, I’m not craving anything, I’m eating until I’m full. This is the best feeling of all today.