There is a phenomenon that many of my SCA friends, and likely my friends who have another hobby where many participants meet together for a day or two several times a year, experience: the post-event blues. It goes a little something like this.
You spend days or weeks anticipating the event and seeing all the people there. Finally the day of the event arrives and you have an amazing time visiting with your friends and doing all the things that there are to do at the event. You soak up the experience, and suddenly the event is over, and it’s time to go home, back to your regular weekday grind. For the next couple of days you’re feeling down because the event that you spent so much time looking forward to, and enjoying the day of the event, has passed, and you really wish that the event could have lasted forever, but real life takes precedence, and it pales in comparison to the fun you had at the event.
I’m experiencing that tonight.
For the last hour or more I’ve been repetitively cycling through my Facebook feed and sports scores and my Discord servers, not really paying much attention to what I’m doing, just kinda going through the motions. This is how I used to feel all the time a few months ago. I didn’t like it then and I don’t like it now.
The good thing, however, is that I know what’s going on, and I know that it’s environmental, not internal, so the melancholy feelings will pass in time.
I’m tired and I want to go to bed, but can’t for a little while longer because of my medication regimen. Fortunately, bed isn’t that far away, and I’m really looking forward to getting some good sleep tonight.