I went to see my therapist today.
We talked at length about my feelings of shame, and she gave me a little homework – think of a time (several, if possible) that I made a mistake, dropped the ball or otherwise just flat screwed something up and DIDN’T feel shame. We also identified some possible triggers for my shame and some ways of countering it when it first arises.
We also talked briefly about the sudden downward spiral of Saturday night and made a little progress in resolving that situation. As before when it first arose, I’m keeping the details of that conversation to myself.
The bottom line is that we’re starting to make progress on getting me back in the workplace, which has been the end goal this whole time.
Sorry today isn’t really longer, but today’s therapy session was largely for me and me alone. But I promised an update, and now you have one.