Yesterday, I wrote about a situation that left me feeling shame, a feeling that I have experienced many times in my life and one that never fails to bring up every other instance of shame I can recall every single time it happens in order to exacerbate the present feeling. It’s something that I can’t control and it’s gotten me into trouble in the past.
Yesterday I also started a book, The Gifts of Imperfection by Brené Brown. The section that I read today dealt with a situation that she calls a “shame cyclone,” and it suddenly dawned on me that’s what I’ve been experiencing. The feelings of shame from my past whipping up the shame of the present and becoming a storm of feeling and emotion.
I got to a stopping point before she went on into how to accept and embrace that feeling – I have a suspicion that the entire book is going to cover that topic – but it’s very timely in its introduction into my life. I’m looking forward to reading more about it in the days and weeks ahead.
On a side note, I completed my whole checklist yesterday. A small success in the broad scheme of things, but one worth noting.